A Nou Attitude

I am tired. I am tired of “the one days." One day, I will be. One day, I will do. This is a condition, a result of environment and circumstance that convinces you to put off to tomorrow or the next day what should and could be done today, in this moment. This state of mind is a consequence of fear and apprehension, which is the enemy of all faith and action.

The realities of trying to shake a negative habit of any kind is that there will be obstacles. Obstacles like the fact that I poured my heart out for hours on the topic, and within seconds, it was all gone. As such, I won't drag out what can be stated succintly.

I want to live now, and this will be the sign that I am. I have started this because it's about time, past time even. And the me that had the idea 16 years ago no longer desires to spend her energy in a state of worry and longing for what could or should have been. Here is to now or nou - the middle english origin of the word now which means “ at this present time, immediately," with some indications that it also means “new, recently,” according to Etymonline. And if you see something on here that looks flawed or feels incomplete, deal with it. Bear with me. Celebrate that it is out in the world rather than hidden in shadows. Rejoice that my courage is free, faith forward, and that I am living nou.